I did the internship at a time in my life where I thought the last person God wanted to use was me. During my sophomore year of college, I was truly frustrated with myself and I struggled to believe the gospel had the power to change my life.
I had many reservations about applying to the internship. Would I really be able to raise support? How can I share Jesus with people when I struggle to believe the truth myself? God trumped all of those questions with His faithfulness throughout the process. He abundantly provided the funds necessary during support raising in ways I could never have fathomed. I realized as I met with students that my brokenness actually pointed them to Jesus. Trying to rest in my own goodness was impossible and exhausting. I truly was free to rest completely on the finished work of Jesus! I had the opportunity to minister to students that Summer out of that truth. As I met with students and saw how desperately their lives needed Jesus I wanted to work my hardest to make the most of the time I had with them. I was continually pushed out of my comfort zone a little bit more each day. It was one of the most challenging and freeing Summers of my life.
Applying to the internship, I honestly didn't think I was going to be chosen. I thought it was expected of me because I was going to be a senior at KU. But, boy, was I wrong. It was exactly what the Lord wanted me to do!
At the onset of the internship, I tried to stand in the background just observing the other interns so I would know what to do. Yet, as I tried to replicate what they were doing, it always failed. I was becoming more and more uncomfortable with myself because I felt I wasn't as good as the other interns. I wasn't bringing in as many people, I wasn't sharing the gospel with as many people and it was really effecting how Jesus was trying to use me; but He WAS using me.
As we were studying 1 Peter, chapter 2 verse 16 penetrated my heart, "Live as people who are free, not using your freedom as a cover-up for evil, but living as servants of God." I learned through the Internship that I am free in Christ and my ministry won't look like everyone else's. I can be the person He made me to be, for Him. Looking back, I can see that as much as I shared the gospel with students, Christ used the students to share the gospel with me even more.
Going into the internship, I thought I pretty much knew what to expect. What the Lord ended up teaching me over the course of the summer and the ways He grew me, however, were so much more than I could have expected or imagined!
As somebody who often struggles with getting caught up in her own performance, God graciously showed me again and again during the internship that ministry is not about me. The Lord really used His Word, the other interns, and the internship leaders to remind me that it was not about how “successful” I appeared, but instead about true reliance on Jesus’ finished work on the Cross. It was really humbling to constantly see Jesus glorified in my weaknesses and imperfections as the interns and I ministered to students on campus. As followers of Jesus, we are called to be faithful by going out into the world and making disciples-- whether 1 person comes to know Him, or 100 people do! The freedom found in this truth is what spurred me on to really love the students at Penn State and share the awesome news of the gospel!
The Lord worked in incredible ways during the internship, and it really was the best summer of my life!
As the Media Department’s first intern, I remember being excited to spend the Summer using the film skills God has given me to make videos and provide resources for DiscipleMakers. BUT, I was also scared that being a headquarters intern would mean I wouldn't get to spend as much time with the campus interns, grow with them, or have as great an impact on campus.
However, God used my Summer in great ways despite my fears! I had the opportunity to work in the Media Department with a great team, work on video projects, co-lead a Bible study on campus, grow alongside the other interns, and get to know a lot of the students.
Though my work was different than those on campus, God often reminded me of 1 Corinthians 12:12: “For just as the body is one and has many members, and all the members of the body, though many, are one body, so it is with Christ.” As a Headquarters intern, I was serving a different role in the body than the other interns, but God was glorified as I enabled the gospel to go forth!
During the internship, I learned more about Jesus and saw my work glorify Him. It was definitely the greatest and most rewarding Summer of my life.